Articulating the lived experience through the written word.

Sitting down at my computer, still, silent, stress fuelled library, allocated writing time ticking by and trying to write a reflective essay about my accommodation of knowledge in terms of the lived experience. I seem to be struggling with continuous contradictions in my writing as well as what seems to be a slight juxtaposition between my current situation and subject matter. I’m experiencing perpetual problems trying write using language that represents the standpoint I claim to take. Learning and thinking in any form I understand to be processes that involve whole body consciousness so, of what is this  ‘mind’ or these ‘thoughts’ or the many other better examples I can’t think of right now but keep referring to in my writing?  Whilst I see natural changes in terms of my dance practice and the ways in which I communicate newly acquired knowledge in my teaching, it seems to be much more difficult to express in my writing, particularly when being reflective. Perpetual text deletion has led to a sense of exasperation so I thought maybe sharing might help. Does this even make sense?  Anyone else sometimes struggle to find the right words?